午餐

簡單的午餐.

甜辣雞

不錯吃哦

這麼久沒煮, 水準依然在.

本以為能找到安慰,
或許心情會好些.
在好轉的時候,
卻被你那無情的眼淚弄糟.
什麼也不說了.
什麼也不想說了.

這時要的不是的眼淚,
而是那能讓人開心的笑容.

好累

不知怎麼, 這兩天都感覺好累.
精神上特別累.
可能有點厭倦現在的生活吧.
活的沒方向, 沒目的.
站在原地不動, 就感覺好沉重.
也分不凊是為了什麼而活,
找不倒生命的意義.
到底要怎麼活才能開心? 才快樂?
我好想知道...

To stay or to leave?

So much has been said about changing of a work environment, what is holding me back?
Never thought a decision like this would be so hard to make.
5 years i have been there and i yearn so much to get out.
Yet, in face with the chance, i could not decide.
I wouldn't know myself if i am going to stay in the army throughout.
I know part of me does not want to.
So, where do that leaves me?
What's so tough making this big decision?

Work environment vs Career prospect
Staying put meant 5 more years at where i am but with an easier road to promotion.
Staying put meant that life will be the same and an easier life.
Life is not going to be fulfilling.
I will be just a engineer in a military police uniform.
Leaving meant starting all over again in a new environment.
Learning new things, getting recognition, starting from scratch.
Will I be happy there?
What if my decision to leave prove to be wrong?
The competition are stiffer there and there is no gurantee that it could be better.
I had to work doubly harder.
Or is it better for me to stay till a higher rank and go back?
I would probably not wait till then.
No one knows what will happen in the future.
But is the future that you see that will determine your decision now.
So what is my decision?
To stay or to leave?