今天讀完了我人生的第一本華文小說。
只能說電影的魔力非同小可。
九把刀是個很會講故事的人。
每一筆幾乎都寫進人的心裡。

我一直都覺得人生不該有任何遺憾。
想做什麼就去做。
人生不就是這樣嗎？
故事精彩不在於結局，而是過程。
這彷拂寫照了我們一生。
盡管我現在站在人生的十字路口，卻不感到畏懼。
我也不曉得未來會怎樣，但我知道這是我想要的生活。
毫無遺憾的向前努力。

時光飛逝， 多兩個禮拜我就正式離開國防部。
這一個月的假期很快過去了。
兩個禮拜的台灣遊，加上這週末的kukup，無煩惱的玩樂告一個段落。
人生即將從新出發。
這段旅程的結果還是個未知數。
但至少我能過我想要的生活。
即使不完美，即使辛苦也是值得的。

我不知道有多少人關注這個部落格，
但我想謝謝你們無形的關心。
天無絕人之路，我不會有事的。

Long time since I last wrote.
It has been an agonizing last month.
I can't seem to understand the rationale behind the decisions made by the higher management these days.
I would have been taken in a year ago but not now.
No way I am going to boast your statistics because of your ridiculous reason.
This is the time when you see the true colours of an organisation and your worth.
It is disheartening to leave in such a manner.
Somehow, these events made me more determined to leave and succeed.
I had never bear thoughts of hatred towards the hand that feed me.
However, these 2 weeks have seen this hand started to slap me for their self-centered targets.
All they ever care was their numbers and goals. Where is the humanity?
Pardon me, if this is the extent you are going to push me, then this will be the extent I am going for.
Do not push a dog to the wall, because it will turn around and bite you.

Taking a big step

As time march towards the end of May, the date gets closer.
I'm getting plenty of mixed feelings.
These 7 years were great experience to me.
I met many people, know most of them and hate some of them.
So, I asked myself, what have I learn during my time in service?
I learn that striving hard and sticking to your principles get you nowhere.
In the end, we are just merely taking instructions from a higher order.
Why succumb to the hands of hierarchy when you have a choice in life?

For the past 1 year, I opened my eyes.
I start to realize that many of my beliefs are drifting away.
In this reality, climbing up the ladder requires more than just strength.
There were times when I thought I could persevere to the end, but it seems that the time has passed.
No longer do I harbor any thoughts of staying.
I could never understand in a non-profitable organization, there are so much struggle for power.
Sad to say, it was not my cup of tea.
My choice to leave at this point of time is not to escape but to forsake the belief I held so strongly.

加入國軍從來不是我志願，更不是我的理想。
但卻是我那時唯一能找到安定的地方。
我沒後悔加入因為這讓我理解， 讓我看清了很多事物。
在國軍的這7年， 我深深地了解穿著軍服的公務員的意思。
有多少人是為了保家衛國，為了培養出優秀的軍人而加入的。
你能相信服了2年的兵議還無法通過體能測驗的道理嗎？

我確實看透了許多事物。
了解到一個人的力量是無法改變所有人的想法。
即使知道軍中有這麼多散慢，懶惰的人又如何。
軍人的素質怎麼可能會提高。

我更發現了表現和熱血在軍中是不夠的。
少不了拍拍馬屁，讓長官知道你的存在。
雖然說這在很多大公司也會發生， 但我始終無發接受這種作法。
我希望能憑實力而不是靠著拍馬屁升職。
現實卻不是如此。

7年也夠了。
尤其近兩年，讓我更清楚看到人生的方向。

4 more months and i'm done.
It's time to move on when there are no more passion left.
I used to be proud of uniform I don. I still do but it no longer feels the same as before.
You realised that the ideals and goals are no longer worth going after.
Afterall, one person's strength will not be enough to change the whole system.
Ability and performance are no longer the only elements to move forward.
Or shall I say, it has never been that way.
Bosses are important. They decide your career pathway.
But how many cherish the talents they have and nurture them.
Most care only about their positions, who do truly cares for those under them?
An inspiring commander inspires people, a commander who treats his men with his heart wins respect.

More often than not, we found ourselves lost in the transition of time.
Before we realize it, 28 year have gone by.
It seems that looking for that modus operandi in life was never that simple.
Changes has always been inevitable, whether for good or bad.
But life reaches a certain period when enough is enough.
No matter how much passion you have, there are just no more reasons to stay on.
5 more months and somehow it seems forever.
You have been kind to me but seriously no way I can work for you.
Nevertheless, I thanked you for pushing me out so I could finally think for myself.
Thank you for showing me your shrewd, hypocrite side.
Life was never going to be easy, and you made it harder with your unreasonable.
Hopefully, one day, I would walk up to you, shake your hand and thank you from the bottom of my heart.

三月

三月了。。
時間仿拂過得好快，但又感覺過得很慢。
快得有點讓人擔心。
擔心自己心裡還沒準備好，擔心未來的去向。
有好多想法卻不知從哪開始，從何著手。
說不怕是騙人的，說計畫好了也是騙人的。
時間一步一步的逼近，感覺離夢想好像越來越近。
事實上還有一段距離。
我真的準備好了嗎？
欲速則不達，我不渴望第一次就能成功。
所以說，以平常心來規畫這一切。
我一直認為機會是給有準備的人。
細心，周祥的計畫加上時機，我相信我做得到。

有時覺得我太為人著想，老是被利用。
真想果斷地拒絕每個要求。
真得很不明白，排好的行程總是會被搞砸。
好悶啊～
作好人是沒用的，有多少會記得。
算了。。不答應也答應了。
下次一定要想清楚先！！

How fast things took a turn in a year.
A change in career path, a change in lifestyle, a total life makeover.
It could have been a spur of moment but I am glad I made the move.
I just don't see myself working for this kind of management.
Hypocritical and manipulative contributes to the worst breed of boss you would ever had.
Sometimes you wonder how people like him survive.
At this level of management, what is exactly in his mind?
Does he really think the world is at his feet?
One day you will wake up and realise that everyone had left.
Maybe then, that will make you to self-reflect.
Only treating people with respect and sincerity will win you their hearts.