本以為能找到安慰,
或許心情會好些.
在好轉的時候,
卻被你那無情的眼淚弄糟.
什麼也不說了.
什麼也不想說了.
這時要的不是的眼淚,
而是那能讓人開心的笑容.
Tuesday, 17 November 2009
好累
不知怎麼, 這兩天都感覺好累.
精神上特別累.
可能有點厭倦現在的生活吧.
活的沒方向, 沒目的.
站在原地不動, 就感覺好沉重.
也分不凊是為了什麼而活,
找不倒生命的意義.
到底要怎麼活才能開心? 才快樂?
我好想知道...
精神上特別累.
可能有點厭倦現在的生活吧.
活的沒方向, 沒目的.
站在原地不動, 就感覺好沉重.
也分不凊是為了什麼而活,
找不倒生命的意義.
到底要怎麼活才能開心? 才快樂?
我好想知道...
Saturday, 7 November 2009
To stay or to leave?
So much has been said about changing of a work environment, what is holding me back?
Never thought a decision like this would be so hard to make.
5 years i have been there and i yearn so much to get out.
Yet, in face with the chance, i could not decide.
I wouldn't know myself if i am going to stay in the army throughout.
I know part of me does not want to.
So, where do that leaves me?
What's so tough making this big decision?
Work environment vs Career prospect
Staying put meant 5 more years at where i am but with an easier road to promotion.
Staying put meant that life will be the same and an easier life.
Life is not going to be fulfilling.
I will be just a engineer in a military police uniform.
Leaving meant starting all over again in a new environment.
Learning new things, getting recognition, starting from scratch.
Will I be happy there?
What if my decision to leave prove to be wrong?
The competition are stiffer there and there is no gurantee that it could be better.
I had to work doubly harder.
Or is it better for me to stay till a higher rank and go back?
I would probably not wait till then.
No one knows what will happen in the future.
But is the future that you see that will determine your decision now.
So what is my decision?
To stay or to leave?
Never thought a decision like this would be so hard to make.
5 years i have been there and i yearn so much to get out.
Yet, in face with the chance, i could not decide.
I wouldn't know myself if i am going to stay in the army throughout.
I know part of me does not want to.
So, where do that leaves me?
What's so tough making this big decision?
Work environment vs Career prospect
Staying put meant 5 more years at where i am but with an easier road to promotion.
Staying put meant that life will be the same and an easier life.
Life is not going to be fulfilling.
I will be just a engineer in a military police uniform.
Leaving meant starting all over again in a new environment.
Learning new things, getting recognition, starting from scratch.
Will I be happy there?
What if my decision to leave prove to be wrong?
The competition are stiffer there and there is no gurantee that it could be better.
I had to work doubly harder.
Or is it better for me to stay till a higher rank and go back?
I would probably not wait till then.
No one knows what will happen in the future.
But is the future that you see that will determine your decision now.
So what is my decision?
To stay or to leave?
Monday, 26 October 2009
Wednesday, 21 October 2009
Monday, 12 October 2009
我錯了
怎麼做才好,
做什麼才算好.
頓時心裡好難受.
幹嘛把事情搞成這樣.
這就叫珍惜嗎?
當旁觀者能理智劝告,
當局者卻不知所措.
為什麼不能去多注意, 多諒解
非得等到痛苦的時候才後悔.
聽到了冷漠,
感受到了失望.
看著電話, 了解了思念.
閉上眼, 寒流湧上了心頭.
一切都自做自受.
冷冷的表情,
酷酷的臉,
說不出我一萬個思念.
即使再不捨,
也要硬撐著.
你或許無法理解,
但我還是想讓你知道,
我是多麼的不捨....
做什麼才算好.
頓時心裡好難受.
幹嘛把事情搞成這樣.
這就叫珍惜嗎?
當旁觀者能理智劝告,
當局者卻不知所措.
為什麼不能去多注意, 多諒解
非得等到痛苦的時候才後悔.
聽到了冷漠,
感受到了失望.
看著電話, 了解了思念.
閉上眼, 寒流湧上了心頭.
一切都自做自受.
冷冷的表情,
酷酷的臉,
說不出我一萬個思念.
即使再不捨,
也要硬撐著.
你或許無法理解,
但我還是想讓你知道,
我是多麼的不捨....
Sunday, 27 September 2009
Spending your weekend at home may not be such a bad idea after all.
Giving an unseen comfort to the mind and a good rest to the body.
It certainly helps to ease one's mind and time to think about.
Life has been this way for the past few years.
No changes, just monotonous.
I'm getting so tired of where i am now.
No motivation and no purpose.
Whether i work or not, i still get that paycheck every month.
Most people love that, except for a handful who feels that they could do so much more.
So much so for those who left became better.
We fought a war within ourselves everyday.
How to make our lives better or at least worth living.
I don't hate my life.
I just can't find that purpose of my life.
Undeniable, i thought about my life a lot.
About what i should do, what i could do to make it worthwhile.
I'm fortunate for what i have today.
I did not earn it by myself, i was left with it.
Somehow, i know i would be better off out there.
Doing what i like and making the most out of myself.
Just give me a couple of years more, i will make a difference.
You would treasure it more if you earned it yourself.
out of difficulties, makes miracles
Giving an unseen comfort to the mind and a good rest to the body.
It certainly helps to ease one's mind and time to think about.
Life has been this way for the past few years.
No changes, just monotonous.
I'm getting so tired of where i am now.
No motivation and no purpose.
Whether i work or not, i still get that paycheck every month.
Most people love that, except for a handful who feels that they could do so much more.
So much so for those who left became better.
We fought a war within ourselves everyday.
How to make our lives better or at least worth living.
I don't hate my life.
I just can't find that purpose of my life.
Undeniable, i thought about my life a lot.
About what i should do, what i could do to make it worthwhile.
I'm fortunate for what i have today.
I did not earn it by myself, i was left with it.
Somehow, i know i would be better off out there.
Doing what i like and making the most out of myself.
Just give me a couple of years more, i will make a difference.
You would treasure it more if you earned it yourself.
out of difficulties, makes miracles
Saturday, 12 September 2009
Monday, 7 September 2009
Monday, 17 August 2009
Mission complete
What would you be doing 530am on a Sunday morning?
Probably sleeping, i guess..
Well, i was at esplanade.
No, not because i have not gone back home after some party.
I was there getting ready to run.
Yes, you did not get that wrong. I was there to run.
It was one of those morning when time seems to stop and
there was only one thing in mind..get to the finish line..
2hrs of run was no easy feat.
Not just a jog in the park or a stroll.
It was a gruelling 21km, mentally tested, physically stretched run.
What am i searching for in the wee hours when i could lie
comfortably in my bed enjoying my sleep.
All for the sake of that moment when you cross the finish line
and you know that all the preparation had bear fruits.
That sense of satisfaction and achievement is what push me further.
I'm glad i finished the race. It never felt any better...
Probably sleeping, i guess..
Well, i was at esplanade.
No, not because i have not gone back home after some party.
I was there getting ready to run.
Yes, you did not get that wrong. I was there to run.
It was one of those morning when time seems to stop and
there was only one thing in mind..get to the finish line..
2hrs of run was no easy feat.
Not just a jog in the park or a stroll.
It was a gruelling 21km, mentally tested, physically stretched run.
What am i searching for in the wee hours when i could lie
comfortably in my bed enjoying my sleep.
All for the sake of that moment when you cross the finish line
and you know that all the preparation had bear fruits.
That sense of satisfaction and achievement is what push me further.
I'm glad i finished the race. It never felt any better...
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