火大

一股怒氣湧上頭,
一個不知所為,不知天高地厚的黃毛小子,
竟然得寸進尺, 爬到我頭上來.
平時不發威竟把我當病貓.
不要以為沒人敢對你怎麼樣,你就能為所欲為.
最好是看凊楚你踩著誰的尾巴.
把我惹火了, 我敢單保你從此絕對不會有好日子過.

他媽的....

Lost~

Time are passing faster nowadays.
Not to mention, years seems to fly pass like a fighter plane.
Thinking about the future can be so scary.
What lies ahead depends on how i want it to be.
What if, I do not know how i want it to be? '
Lost' could be a big word to use but it fits in my shoes. Lost in life? Probably so.
Perhaps being in a place for too long can make one so unmotivated and hopeless.
Looking at my peers and then my superiors. Is this what i want 10 years down the road?
I could feel the drowning sensation and desperately gasping for air.
I need a hand to get me out, to tell me this is the road you should be taking.
Shed some light on my life, please.
It's disheartening going for work everyday now.
Nothing seems to be moving except the clock on the wall.
What is wrong?
Something i have been trying to figure out these days too.
I began to dread this place and am looking for alternatives everyday.
Guess i'm desperate. Desperate to get out.
Staring myself deep at the mirror, this cannot be my life....

想對你說的話

一個忘不了的日子,
一幕深深烙印在心裡的畫面,
每年這時都會不盡的浮現.

好想你啊.....
你知道嗎..每次聽到身邊的人說起媽媽的事時,
或打電話給他們時, 心裡有時就會覺得..好酸..
雖然不曾說或表現出來, 不過真的很羨慕.

我當然很慶幸三姨每年除夕不忘都會叫我到她家,
更讓我珍惜每年的年夜飯.
說真的, 我非常感謝她們一家人這幾年對我的照顧,
把我當做家人看待.
但是,我也凊楚我始終不屬於她們一家.
當然不是因為她們做的不夠多或不夠好.
她們對我已經很好,做的夠多了.
畢竟她們才是住在一起的一家人,
會互相照顧, 一起分擔煩惱.
我又怎麼能去加重她們的煩惱呢.
偶爾和她們吃吃晚飯, 還有每年的团圓飯已經讓我很滿足了.
真的很感謝你門!!

回想起小時候總是要跑來跑去, 老是換保母.
一直沒發現其實最辛苦的人是你.
就算我懂事能在家裡時, 你還是會不放心.
每天特早起來, 就為了幫我準備早餐和午餐.
每天放學都會打來問我到家了嗎.
當時我只覺得好煩, 怎麼老是打來.
那時, 我只希望能快點長大.
現在回頭看, 或許我應該好好珍惜和你的每一天.
為什麼總是要在失去後才懂得珍惜呢.
時間不回倒轉, 沒有了重來的機會, 留下的只有後悔.
後悔為什麼沒好好孝順你,
後悔為什麼老是和你頂嘴,
後悔從來都沒和你好好的說話.
如今, 這些後悔換來的只有遺憾.
要怪只能怪當時把一切都當作理所當然.

現在發現一個人要打理一個家真的不容易.
不知道你怎麼有辦法又工作有得做家務.
雖然我從小學會了如何獨立,
但正正一個人住時, 卻是兩回事.
我知道很多人很羨慕我這麼年輕就有自己的家.
不否認的, 一個人住確實有了很大的自由.
你要做什麼都沒有人管.
有一點要記得的是, 你病倒時也沒人會在身邊照顧你.
盡管如此, 我覺得我還是很辛運的.
這幾年來, 我也學會了很多事.
家裡大大小小都得親理親為.
身旁也有許多關心我的好朋友.

媽..
你不用再但心我了, 我真的長大了.
我知道你一直都在某處看著我.
如果你能聽見, 我想對你說..
對不起,
從小到大只會惹你生氣, 讓你但心.
對不起,
在你還在時, 沒有好好的孝順你.
媽媽只有一個, 我卻不會去珍惜.
或許已太遲, 不過我不會忘記你對我所做的一切.
在你離開前所說的話, 我會窂窂記在心裡.

新年快樂, 媽....

晚餐

有一段時間沒下廚了

最近心血來潮

想吃吃一下家裡的食物

所以就大晴早去買菜

也不是說很早啦..大概十二點多..

沒想到這次煮的比前幾次都好

應該算最好的一次吧
不過煮的好像有點多

但, 是好吃的囉..

兩菜一湯 (一個人吃真的好像有點多)

甜辣碎肉豆腐

蚵油炒青菜

ABC 湯

可能真的外頭的食物吃多了

就覺得家裡煮的食物特別好吃

Back..

Am back after my long trip away.
I would say it's a long trip as it really drain all my energy.
Was glad that i'm back..for once..
it has been a fantastic trip though..
all the drinking and clubbing. probably a little too long..feeling the effects now.
time for a rest, i guess.

2009..
how to make it different from 2008.
gonna go try out new things..
shouldn't waste my life..we would never know what will happen tomorrow.
at least i'm gonna live my life worthwhile.
no time for egret, no time for procastinating.
actions speak louder, experience makes one learn.
it's going to be a different year...

2008

had a really fun time last night at jovie's house.
there were soccer players, old man, stupid boy, minnie mouse, a fat superman,
secondary school students and some ridiculous looking couple..
the food was good and the company was great.

lookng back at this past year,
April - went bangkok with boon, kopi, bao, fei, pamela, shihui, debbie
May - duty on my birthday..zzzz..
June - went for Policing course in Police Academy
July - went bangkok again with dehong.
August - AHM run..
October - overseas attachment to Queensland, Australia.
December - going bangkok..yea..again...hahaha..

seems like i start the year in bangkok and end it in bangkok..haha
i had a really fun year in 2008, living my life to the fullest, i suppose.

but the world wasn't doing so well.
hit by the sub-prime crisis, the whole world is in recession.
some people even comparing it to the great depression.
banks after banks fallen. companies after companies collapsed.
had never thought that recession could affect people.
afterall, i was still schooling during the last recession.
we had seen how china has its up and downs all within one year.
india being attacked by terrorists, bangkok airport being close down.
there were so much unrest all over the world.
i'm not a fan of world peace but hope all this will be over soon.

looking forward to 2009, hope i can get post out.
seriously need a change of environment, change of lifestyle.
let's embrace 2009 with hope, peace and love...(this is so miss world script)

goodbye singapore..hello bangkok..

my christmas present

My new gadget..

it's a beauty...

不安靜的夜

沒人的房子裡 顯得特別安靜
不開燈的房間 讓人看不見
一個人的心跳 掩蓋了這寧靜
好不容易忘記 又突然想起
為什麼在這時 浮現的是你影子
放棄的原因 比誰都了解
等了再久又如何
心中的傷痕 不會為你而愈合

Oops, i did it again

yea, i did it again..
drunk and feeling the effects..
shit, shouldn't have drank so much.
i'm alright, just feeling a little restless.
couldn't exactly piece together what i did last night,
or what happen last night.
all i know is i was everywhere and finally home.
had never crave for my bed so much.
hey, at least i didn't dirty the cab k..
wonder how am i going to survive my 8 nights in bangkok.
god bless.....

沒力?

喘氣聲變得好沉重,
腳步不聽使喚,
心中的毅力像被踩著,
散發出的汗,
讓人感覺疲憊.
到底怎麼了?
是真的累了嗎?
莫名的狀況讓我好困惑...