It has been a while. Many things happened but deem to be routine or insignificant. Life has been this way, isn't it? Do we really have a choice or that circumstances lead us through this path? Doing what you like to do makes you happy, keep you motivated. The building greeted me almost everyday with the sun rays reflecting from the same spot, siginifying a new day. Ironically, the new day resembles like yesterday, or the day before, or rather everyday. So, where is that 'new' day that suppose to beholds us? Suddenly. i felt victim to time. Consuming every step we take, every thought we think.
It seems i'm trying to stall time here. Waiting for the opportunity to struck. Everytime i look around my workplace,i know, for sure, this ain't gonna be my life. People here are just waiting for things to happen. Only when the knife is right at their throat before they can start working. There are no committment, no initiative, no self-motivation. Work for the sake of working, for the sake of showing people he can work but we all know the truth as much. Well, i figure it out there is nothing i could do to change anything. So why get so vexed up? Simply because i'm facing these people day in day out.
I told myself i am going to get out one day. This is not the place for me, definitely. Just need a couple of years when i have enough gold to venture. Meanwhile, there are much homework to be done. That will keep me going, period. Hopefully it lasts longer than i have to wait.
Sunday, 31 May 2009
Thursday, 23 April 2009
Dan Brown
Books made me sleepy, i admit. So, I seldom read. Given my lack of reading, i probably should not be the one recommending books. When i first stumbled across this author, i never gave a second look. After reading his first book, i must say, he is really good. I applaud his efforts in writing his books.
Juggling between ficton and non-fiction, his books are so intriguing that it simply can't stop you from reading. You will be sucked into his world of imagination. It was as if you are watching a movie out of a book. That was probably why his books were turned into movies one by one. From his Da Vinci Code to Angels and Demons, the scripts were written in such a pace that there was no time to stop and breathe. Imagine the researches he has to do in just writing a book and on top of that, challenging the theories behind those religions and beliefs. I do not know if he had something against Christianity, perhaps it's a religion with the most controversies and arguments? You sometimes wondered the contents of his books, which are the facts and which are not. Christians would have argued the contents but how much do you know about your religion? Are you just finding a god to believe in or that you hope to go to heaven after believing? It's not about finding the one with the best offers with the best prizes. I mean, seriously, what makes people believe in religions? How do you actually choose your religion? Popularity? Because your friends told you God is great?
Don't misunderstood me here. I'm not being prejudice to religions or dissuade people from believing in one. It was just a mind boggling thought i had recently. Religion has never been my life agenda. Though i was forced to attend many functions by my late mum. Perhaps i would never understand the reason for religion...
Juggling between ficton and non-fiction, his books are so intriguing that it simply can't stop you from reading. You will be sucked into his world of imagination. It was as if you are watching a movie out of a book. That was probably why his books were turned into movies one by one. From his Da Vinci Code to Angels and Demons, the scripts were written in such a pace that there was no time to stop and breathe. Imagine the researches he has to do in just writing a book and on top of that, challenging the theories behind those religions and beliefs. I do not know if he had something against Christianity, perhaps it's a religion with the most controversies and arguments? You sometimes wondered the contents of his books, which are the facts and which are not. Christians would have argued the contents but how much do you know about your religion? Are you just finding a god to believe in or that you hope to go to heaven after believing? It's not about finding the one with the best offers with the best prizes. I mean, seriously, what makes people believe in religions? How do you actually choose your religion? Popularity? Because your friends told you God is great?
Don't misunderstood me here. I'm not being prejudice to religions or dissuade people from believing in one. It was just a mind boggling thought i had recently. Religion has never been my life agenda. Though i was forced to attend many functions by my late mum. Perhaps i would never understand the reason for religion...
Monday, 20 April 2009
The food remain tasteless as i goggled up for the sake of filling my hunger. This morning was worse off. I almost suffocate with my own training. A remedial training for my IPPT failures turn out to be too much. Too much, even for myself, it seems. Should have listen to my body warning system. Clearly not 100%, i tried to push myself a bit more. A bit more nearly drive me into daze. Need to get back to shape..slowly. Wonder how long this would last..Hopefully it ends soon...
Sunday, 19 April 2009
Thursday, 9 April 2009
Made it
Finally made it.
Foot across the line and the time stops.
A sudden gush of air into my lungs as i try to recover from my panting.
It never seemed easy for me but the satisfaction beats it all.
I had tried my best and i got the results i need.
This could easily be my best run for the entire year.
More significantly, it came at the right time.
First goal achieved..
now next....
Foot across the line and the time stops.
A sudden gush of air into my lungs as i try to recover from my panting.
It never seemed easy for me but the satisfaction beats it all.
I had tried my best and i got the results i need.
This could easily be my best run for the entire year.
More significantly, it came at the right time.
First goal achieved..
now next....
Wednesday, 1 April 2009
Saturday, 28 March 2009
Saturday, 21 March 2009
Sunday, 8 March 2009
Tired? Anger?
Having completed my 7th consecutive duty yesterday(yea, SEVENTH) , fatigue is kicking in faster nowadays. Mentally tired describes my condition perfectly. I need a rest badly. Energy drained, physically worn out yet i still had to keep myself in perfect physique for the coming IPPT in April. Despite running regularly, training for timing is another thing altogether. More physical demanding training is needed. With a morale at rock bottom and a battered body, it's hard trying to enhanced my performance.
Work is not getting easier too. The whole transition period is killing everybody. Working time extended and a big bunch of 'freshmen' to teach. Perhaps that explains the fatigue building in me. Temper porbably comes along with it as well. I had always tried so hard not to make people cover my duty because of my personal events yet there are just bloody suckers who don't give a shit and enjoys every bit of us having to cover his ass for him. Why should i give a damn then. I should enjoy burning his every long weekend and watch him have a taste of his own medicine.
It's just a matter of time before he becomes my target board. Just a matter of time....
Work is not getting easier too. The whole transition period is killing everybody. Working time extended and a big bunch of 'freshmen' to teach. Perhaps that explains the fatigue building in me. Temper porbably comes along with it as well. I had always tried so hard not to make people cover my duty because of my personal events yet there are just bloody suckers who don't give a shit and enjoys every bit of us having to cover his ass for him. Why should i give a damn then. I should enjoy burning his every long weekend and watch him have a taste of his own medicine.
It's just a matter of time before he becomes my target board. Just a matter of time....
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