Never thought that there are so much knowledge into running.
Most of us probably will just run for the sake of fitness, or part of physical training.
I came to realise that there are more to it.
Recently bought a book about running techniques - Master the Art of Running.
Halfway through the book, i had already found myself running the wrong way.
Now, you are probably wondering is that a wrong way of running.
Well, the answer is yes and many of us are doing it.
I have been running for the past 1 year, never did i think about the way i run
or the way i breathe, the way i land my foot.
Although my timing had improved through the year, i find myself stuck at a
point where i could not exceed myself.
No doubt i have been running very regularly but running the wrong way as well.
Even though many regards me a good runner now, i do not see myself as good
or near the best. Instead, i'm still far away as good.
There seem to be a new leash of life in running now.
There are so much to learn about this simple sport.
From posture to breathing to technique, i seem to be starting all over again.
But i am glad i learning the right way now.
I got the foundation. I just need to correct and get used to the corrrect way of running.
It is going to be difficult but definitely beneficial.
Learn the art of running and enjoy it.
Then results will come...
Thursday, 17 December 2009
Tuesday, 15 December 2009
折磨人的愛情
究竟兩個人在一起是為了什麼?
在一起是為了分手嗎?
當下的人是否認真想過.
曾經許下的承諾,
如今又剩下什麼.
可憐了那些為愛痴狂的人.
可憐了那些為愛傷害的人.
我只想保護和珍惜愛我的人.
愛情不就莫過於此嗎..
在一起是為了分手嗎?
當下的人是否認真想過.
曾經許下的承諾,
如今又剩下什麼.
可憐了那些為愛痴狂的人.
可憐了那些為愛傷害的人.
我只想保護和珍惜愛我的人.
愛情不就莫過於此嗎..
Monday, 7 December 2009
End of 2009 races
It has been a year of milestones for me.
I challenged my limits and what a way to end 2009.
It started off in April when i set myself a target to acieve IPPT gold.
I got it from my second try.
After which i decided to run more and longer distances.
Army half marathon was the first.
I averaged from 30-50km every week,running day in day out.
It paid off as i begin running more comfortably and faster.
Running the full marathon was not on my agenda initially.
But with more than 6mths to train, i thought i'll give it a try.
The training was never easy.
Clocking distances i had never ran before.
It just gets further and further each week.
The completion of the race without stopping was satisfying.
A realistic target was set and i ran well below it.
Well, with my first marathon done, more were to come.
Resolutions for next year is simple, run more and faster.
when the going gets tough, it's just mind over body....
Monday, 30 November 2009
Tuesday, 17 November 2009
好累
不知怎麼, 這兩天都感覺好累.
精神上特別累.
可能有點厭倦現在的生活吧.
活的沒方向, 沒目的.
站在原地不動, 就感覺好沉重.
也分不凊是為了什麼而活,
找不倒生命的意義.
到底要怎麼活才能開心? 才快樂?
我好想知道...
精神上特別累.
可能有點厭倦現在的生活吧.
活的沒方向, 沒目的.
站在原地不動, 就感覺好沉重.
也分不凊是為了什麼而活,
找不倒生命的意義.
到底要怎麼活才能開心? 才快樂?
我好想知道...
Saturday, 7 November 2009
To stay or to leave?
So much has been said about changing of a work environment, what is holding me back?
Never thought a decision like this would be so hard to make.
5 years i have been there and i yearn so much to get out.
Yet, in face with the chance, i could not decide.
I wouldn't know myself if i am going to stay in the army throughout.
I know part of me does not want to.
So, where do that leaves me?
What's so tough making this big decision?
Work environment vs Career prospect
Staying put meant 5 more years at where i am but with an easier road to promotion.
Staying put meant that life will be the same and an easier life.
Life is not going to be fulfilling.
I will be just a engineer in a military police uniform.
Leaving meant starting all over again in a new environment.
Learning new things, getting recognition, starting from scratch.
Will I be happy there?
What if my decision to leave prove to be wrong?
The competition are stiffer there and there is no gurantee that it could be better.
I had to work doubly harder.
Or is it better for me to stay till a higher rank and go back?
I would probably not wait till then.
No one knows what will happen in the future.
But is the future that you see that will determine your decision now.
So what is my decision?
To stay or to leave?
Never thought a decision like this would be so hard to make.
5 years i have been there and i yearn so much to get out.
Yet, in face with the chance, i could not decide.
I wouldn't know myself if i am going to stay in the army throughout.
I know part of me does not want to.
So, where do that leaves me?
What's so tough making this big decision?
Work environment vs Career prospect
Staying put meant 5 more years at where i am but with an easier road to promotion.
Staying put meant that life will be the same and an easier life.
Life is not going to be fulfilling.
I will be just a engineer in a military police uniform.
Leaving meant starting all over again in a new environment.
Learning new things, getting recognition, starting from scratch.
Will I be happy there?
What if my decision to leave prove to be wrong?
The competition are stiffer there and there is no gurantee that it could be better.
I had to work doubly harder.
Or is it better for me to stay till a higher rank and go back?
I would probably not wait till then.
No one knows what will happen in the future.
But is the future that you see that will determine your decision now.
So what is my decision?
To stay or to leave?
Monday, 26 October 2009
Wednesday, 21 October 2009
Monday, 12 October 2009
我錯了
怎麼做才好,
做什麼才算好.
頓時心裡好難受.
幹嘛把事情搞成這樣.
這就叫珍惜嗎?
當旁觀者能理智劝告,
當局者卻不知所措.
為什麼不能去多注意, 多諒解
非得等到痛苦的時候才後悔.
聽到了冷漠,
感受到了失望.
看著電話, 了解了思念.
閉上眼, 寒流湧上了心頭.
一切都自做自受.
冷冷的表情,
酷酷的臉,
說不出我一萬個思念.
即使再不捨,
也要硬撐著.
你或許無法理解,
但我還是想讓你知道,
我是多麼的不捨....
做什麼才算好.
頓時心裡好難受.
幹嘛把事情搞成這樣.
這就叫珍惜嗎?
當旁觀者能理智劝告,
當局者卻不知所措.
為什麼不能去多注意, 多諒解
非得等到痛苦的時候才後悔.
聽到了冷漠,
感受到了失望.
看著電話, 了解了思念.
閉上眼, 寒流湧上了心頭.
一切都自做自受.
冷冷的表情,
酷酷的臉,
說不出我一萬個思念.
即使再不捨,
也要硬撐著.
你或許無法理解,
但我還是想讓你知道,
我是多麼的不捨....
Sunday, 27 September 2009
Spending your weekend at home may not be such a bad idea after all.
Giving an unseen comfort to the mind and a good rest to the body.
It certainly helps to ease one's mind and time to think about.
Life has been this way for the past few years.
No changes, just monotonous.
I'm getting so tired of where i am now.
No motivation and no purpose.
Whether i work or not, i still get that paycheck every month.
Most people love that, except for a handful who feels that they could do so much more.
So much so for those who left became better.
We fought a war within ourselves everyday.
How to make our lives better or at least worth living.
I don't hate my life.
I just can't find that purpose of my life.
Undeniable, i thought about my life a lot.
About what i should do, what i could do to make it worthwhile.
I'm fortunate for what i have today.
I did not earn it by myself, i was left with it.
Somehow, i know i would be better off out there.
Doing what i like and making the most out of myself.
Just give me a couple of years more, i will make a difference.
You would treasure it more if you earned it yourself.
out of difficulties, makes miracles
Giving an unseen comfort to the mind and a good rest to the body.
It certainly helps to ease one's mind and time to think about.
Life has been this way for the past few years.
No changes, just monotonous.
I'm getting so tired of where i am now.
No motivation and no purpose.
Whether i work or not, i still get that paycheck every month.
Most people love that, except for a handful who feels that they could do so much more.
So much so for those who left became better.
We fought a war within ourselves everyday.
How to make our lives better or at least worth living.
I don't hate my life.
I just can't find that purpose of my life.
Undeniable, i thought about my life a lot.
About what i should do, what i could do to make it worthwhile.
I'm fortunate for what i have today.
I did not earn it by myself, i was left with it.
Somehow, i know i would be better off out there.
Doing what i like and making the most out of myself.
Just give me a couple of years more, i will make a difference.
You would treasure it more if you earned it yourself.
out of difficulties, makes miracles
Saturday, 12 September 2009
Monday, 7 September 2009
Monday, 17 August 2009
Mission complete
What would you be doing 530am on a Sunday morning?
Probably sleeping, i guess..
Well, i was at esplanade.
No, not because i have not gone back home after some party.
I was there getting ready to run.
Yes, you did not get that wrong. I was there to run.
It was one of those morning when time seems to stop and
there was only one thing in mind..get to the finish line..
2hrs of run was no easy feat.
Not just a jog in the park or a stroll.
It was a gruelling 21km, mentally tested, physically stretched run.
What am i searching for in the wee hours when i could lie
comfortably in my bed enjoying my sleep.
All for the sake of that moment when you cross the finish line
and you know that all the preparation had bear fruits.
That sense of satisfaction and achievement is what push me further.
I'm glad i finished the race. It never felt any better...
Probably sleeping, i guess..
Well, i was at esplanade.
No, not because i have not gone back home after some party.
I was there getting ready to run.
Yes, you did not get that wrong. I was there to run.
It was one of those morning when time seems to stop and
there was only one thing in mind..get to the finish line..
2hrs of run was no easy feat.
Not just a jog in the park or a stroll.
It was a gruelling 21km, mentally tested, physically stretched run.
What am i searching for in the wee hours when i could lie
comfortably in my bed enjoying my sleep.
All for the sake of that moment when you cross the finish line
and you know that all the preparation had bear fruits.
That sense of satisfaction and achievement is what push me further.
I'm glad i finished the race. It never felt any better...
Saturday, 25 July 2009
mentally tired, physically strained..
Finally woke up after my morning run.
Finished my first 21km this morning.
Can't believe it's so tiring!
At least i met my target of finishing under 2hrs..
Although it's just a little under 2hrs, it's still good enough for a first-timer..
Wonder how it feels like completing a full marathon..
I just couldn't imagine..
But i'm still going to do it.
It's going to be great physical and mental challenge.
Got to train hard..
Now it's payback time, gotta eat to my fullest..
22days to go..
Finished my first 21km this morning.
Can't believe it's so tiring!
At least i met my target of finishing under 2hrs..
Although it's just a little under 2hrs, it's still good enough for a first-timer..
Wonder how it feels like completing a full marathon..
I just couldn't imagine..
But i'm still going to do it.
It's going to be great physical and mental challenge.
Got to train hard..
Now it's payback time, gotta eat to my fullest..
22days to go..
Wednesday, 8 July 2009
Gone Too Soon...
Today we celebrated the life of a true icon.
The final curtain call for the King of Pop.
Watching the memorial brought back many memories.
Not only the memories of childhood but the memories with ur loved ones.
Life has always been so fragile.
Whether you were a popstar or just a man in a crowd, death has never eluded us.
Memories were flooding back in, along with sorrow and regrets.
It was never death that was scary but the death of your close ones.
I finally realised it's not death till us part but rather death brought us together..in our hearts.
I had always wondered what life meant.
Living for almost a century gone..just like this.
It is saddening when you had not done enough,
when you know what you could have done.
There will never be another you...and i would never forget..
i miss you...
The final curtain call for the King of Pop.
Watching the memorial brought back many memories.
Not only the memories of childhood but the memories with ur loved ones.
Life has always been so fragile.
Whether you were a popstar or just a man in a crowd, death has never eluded us.
Memories were flooding back in, along with sorrow and regrets.
It was never death that was scary but the death of your close ones.
I finally realised it's not death till us part but rather death brought us together..in our hearts.
I had always wondered what life meant.
Living for almost a century gone..just like this.
It is saddening when you had not done enough,
when you know what you could have done.
There will never be another you...and i would never forget..
i miss you...
Tuesday, 30 June 2009
Michael Jackson 1958 - 2009
Goodbye King of Pop...
Too much have been said.
His pictures hogged every newspaper headlines,
His stories, his life has always been that way, isn't it?
No matter how much scandals or how many negatives about him,
The fact is, he will always be the best performer the world would ever see.
His personal life may be in a mess but who could blame him.
He shot to fame overnight and before he know it, the press was all over him.
Everywhere he goes, everything he does was under the eyes of everybody.
Some say he was killed by the media.
Well, i chose to remember him as the best performer on stage and one person
who changes the face of music.
I guess it has always been a long lonely road to super stardom...
There will never be another Michael Jackson..
Rest In Peace Mike.....
Too much have been said.
His pictures hogged every newspaper headlines,
His stories, his life has always been that way, isn't it?
No matter how much scandals or how many negatives about him,
The fact is, he will always be the best performer the world would ever see.
His personal life may be in a mess but who could blame him.
He shot to fame overnight and before he know it, the press was all over him.
Everywhere he goes, everything he does was under the eyes of everybody.
Some say he was killed by the media.
Well, i chose to remember him as the best performer on stage and one person
who changes the face of music.
I guess it has always been a long lonely road to super stardom...
There will never be another Michael Jackson..
Rest In Peace Mike.....
Tuesday, 16 June 2009
Sunday, 14 June 2009
Weekend getaway
It was a great weekend getaway from the troubled waters of Singapore.
Certainly an enjoyable trip with the closest people in your life besides your family.
Somehow or rather it did not exactly matched up to our anticipation with many of the facilities
were not available. Luckily, our stomach did not have to suffer after we were treated with
a spread of seafood feast on our last night.
The most important of all, the fun was great, the company was excellent. That's all you need.
Even without the games or how remote the resort was, nothing was in the way of boozing and
enjoying the trip.
Certainly an enjoyable trip with the closest people in your life besides your family.
Somehow or rather it did not exactly matched up to our anticipation with many of the facilities
were not available. Luckily, our stomach did not have to suffer after we were treated with
a spread of seafood feast on our last night.
The most important of all, the fun was great, the company was excellent. That's all you need.
Even without the games or how remote the resort was, nothing was in the way of boozing and
enjoying the trip.
Thursday, 4 June 2009
Running
It's amazing how things change so quickly. 2 years ago, i was still dreading to run, forcing myself
for the sake of staying fit. But now, it has almost become an addict. An addict which i need to get my fix every week. Running is not such a chore now. I enjoy my runs now and can't wait to hit it to the roads. Never thought i would be training for marathons. Could still remember this time last year, i was still counting myself lucky when i do not have to do the AHM. This year, however, i have already registered for the 21km event. And come December, 42km awaits.
Running events excites me, not only because of the goodie bag of course, but also the joy of running on the roads of singapore. Well, this second half of year will be exciting, at least
something to look forward to amist the long runs.
16 Aug - Army Half Marathon / Singapore Bay Run (21km)
13 Sep - Mizuno Wave Run (10km)
18 Oct - New Balance Real Run (10km)
6 Dec - Standard Chartered (42km)
These are just some of the confirmed events. Others such as NUS run, Nike run dates have not
been fixed yet. It seems time for another dose of adrenaline....
for the sake of staying fit. But now, it has almost become an addict. An addict which i need to get my fix every week. Running is not such a chore now. I enjoy my runs now and can't wait to hit it to the roads. Never thought i would be training for marathons. Could still remember this time last year, i was still counting myself lucky when i do not have to do the AHM. This year, however, i have already registered for the 21km event. And come December, 42km awaits.
Running events excites me, not only because of the goodie bag of course, but also the joy of running on the roads of singapore. Well, this second half of year will be exciting, at least
something to look forward to amist the long runs.
16 Aug - Army Half Marathon / Singapore Bay Run (21km)
13 Sep - Mizuno Wave Run (10km)
18 Oct - New Balance Real Run (10km)
6 Dec - Standard Chartered (42km)
These are just some of the confirmed events. Others such as NUS run, Nike run dates have not
been fixed yet. It seems time for another dose of adrenaline....
Sunday, 31 May 2009
What's life?
It has been a while. Many things happened but deem to be routine or insignificant. Life has been this way, isn't it? Do we really have a choice or that circumstances lead us through this path? Doing what you like to do makes you happy, keep you motivated. The building greeted me almost everyday with the sun rays reflecting from the same spot, siginifying a new day. Ironically, the new day resembles like yesterday, or the day before, or rather everyday. So, where is that 'new' day that suppose to beholds us? Suddenly. i felt victim to time. Consuming every step we take, every thought we think.
It seems i'm trying to stall time here. Waiting for the opportunity to struck. Everytime i look around my workplace,i know, for sure, this ain't gonna be my life. People here are just waiting for things to happen. Only when the knife is right at their throat before they can start working. There are no committment, no initiative, no self-motivation. Work for the sake of working, for the sake of showing people he can work but we all know the truth as much. Well, i figure it out there is nothing i could do to change anything. So why get so vexed up? Simply because i'm facing these people day in day out.
I told myself i am going to get out one day. This is not the place for me, definitely. Just need a couple of years when i have enough gold to venture. Meanwhile, there are much homework to be done. That will keep me going, period. Hopefully it lasts longer than i have to wait.
It seems i'm trying to stall time here. Waiting for the opportunity to struck. Everytime i look around my workplace,i know, for sure, this ain't gonna be my life. People here are just waiting for things to happen. Only when the knife is right at their throat before they can start working. There are no committment, no initiative, no self-motivation. Work for the sake of working, for the sake of showing people he can work but we all know the truth as much. Well, i figure it out there is nothing i could do to change anything. So why get so vexed up? Simply because i'm facing these people day in day out.
I told myself i am going to get out one day. This is not the place for me, definitely. Just need a couple of years when i have enough gold to venture. Meanwhile, there are much homework to be done. That will keep me going, period. Hopefully it lasts longer than i have to wait.
Thursday, 23 April 2009
Dan Brown
Books made me sleepy, i admit. So, I seldom read. Given my lack of reading, i probably should not be the one recommending books. When i first stumbled across this author, i never gave a second look. After reading his first book, i must say, he is really good. I applaud his efforts in writing his books.
Juggling between ficton and non-fiction, his books are so intriguing that it simply can't stop you from reading. You will be sucked into his world of imagination. It was as if you are watching a movie out of a book. That was probably why his books were turned into movies one by one. From his Da Vinci Code to Angels and Demons, the scripts were written in such a pace that there was no time to stop and breathe. Imagine the researches he has to do in just writing a book and on top of that, challenging the theories behind those religions and beliefs. I do not know if he had something against Christianity, perhaps it's a religion with the most controversies and arguments? You sometimes wondered the contents of his books, which are the facts and which are not. Christians would have argued the contents but how much do you know about your religion? Are you just finding a god to believe in or that you hope to go to heaven after believing? It's not about finding the one with the best offers with the best prizes. I mean, seriously, what makes people believe in religions? How do you actually choose your religion? Popularity? Because your friends told you God is great?
Don't misunderstood me here. I'm not being prejudice to religions or dissuade people from believing in one. It was just a mind boggling thought i had recently. Religion has never been my life agenda. Though i was forced to attend many functions by my late mum. Perhaps i would never understand the reason for religion...
Juggling between ficton and non-fiction, his books are so intriguing that it simply can't stop you from reading. You will be sucked into his world of imagination. It was as if you are watching a movie out of a book. That was probably why his books were turned into movies one by one. From his Da Vinci Code to Angels and Demons, the scripts were written in such a pace that there was no time to stop and breathe. Imagine the researches he has to do in just writing a book and on top of that, challenging the theories behind those religions and beliefs. I do not know if he had something against Christianity, perhaps it's a religion with the most controversies and arguments? You sometimes wondered the contents of his books, which are the facts and which are not. Christians would have argued the contents but how much do you know about your religion? Are you just finding a god to believe in or that you hope to go to heaven after believing? It's not about finding the one with the best offers with the best prizes. I mean, seriously, what makes people believe in religions? How do you actually choose your religion? Popularity? Because your friends told you God is great?
Don't misunderstood me here. I'm not being prejudice to religions or dissuade people from believing in one. It was just a mind boggling thought i had recently. Religion has never been my life agenda. Though i was forced to attend many functions by my late mum. Perhaps i would never understand the reason for religion...
Monday, 20 April 2009
The food remain tasteless as i goggled up for the sake of filling my hunger. This morning was worse off. I almost suffocate with my own training. A remedial training for my IPPT failures turn out to be too much. Too much, even for myself, it seems. Should have listen to my body warning system. Clearly not 100%, i tried to push myself a bit more. A bit more nearly drive me into daze. Need to get back to shape..slowly. Wonder how long this would last..Hopefully it ends soon...
Sunday, 19 April 2009
Thursday, 9 April 2009
Made it
Finally made it.
Foot across the line and the time stops.
A sudden gush of air into my lungs as i try to recover from my panting.
It never seemed easy for me but the satisfaction beats it all.
I had tried my best and i got the results i need.
This could easily be my best run for the entire year.
More significantly, it came at the right time.
First goal achieved..
now next....
Foot across the line and the time stops.
A sudden gush of air into my lungs as i try to recover from my panting.
It never seemed easy for me but the satisfaction beats it all.
I had tried my best and i got the results i need.
This could easily be my best run for the entire year.
More significantly, it came at the right time.
First goal achieved..
now next....
Wednesday, 1 April 2009
Saturday, 28 March 2009
Saturday, 21 March 2009
Sunday, 8 March 2009
Tired? Anger?
Having completed my 7th consecutive duty yesterday(yea, SEVENTH) , fatigue is kicking in faster nowadays. Mentally tired describes my condition perfectly. I need a rest badly. Energy drained, physically worn out yet i still had to keep myself in perfect physique for the coming IPPT in April. Despite running regularly, training for timing is another thing altogether. More physical demanding training is needed. With a morale at rock bottom and a battered body, it's hard trying to enhanced my performance.
Work is not getting easier too. The whole transition period is killing everybody. Working time extended and a big bunch of 'freshmen' to teach. Perhaps that explains the fatigue building in me. Temper porbably comes along with it as well. I had always tried so hard not to make people cover my duty because of my personal events yet there are just bloody suckers who don't give a shit and enjoys every bit of us having to cover his ass for him. Why should i give a damn then. I should enjoy burning his every long weekend and watch him have a taste of his own medicine.
It's just a matter of time before he becomes my target board. Just a matter of time....
Work is not getting easier too. The whole transition period is killing everybody. Working time extended and a big bunch of 'freshmen' to teach. Perhaps that explains the fatigue building in me. Temper porbably comes along with it as well. I had always tried so hard not to make people cover my duty because of my personal events yet there are just bloody suckers who don't give a shit and enjoys every bit of us having to cover his ass for him. Why should i give a damn then. I should enjoy burning his every long weekend and watch him have a taste of his own medicine.
It's just a matter of time before he becomes my target board. Just a matter of time....
Tuesday, 24 February 2009
火大
一股怒氣湧上頭,
一個不知所為,不知天高地厚的黃毛小子,
竟然得寸進尺, 爬到我頭上來.
平時不發威竟把我當病貓.
不要以為沒人敢對你怎麼樣,你就能為所欲為.
最好是看凊楚你踩著誰的尾巴.
把我惹火了, 我敢單保你從此絕對不會有好日子過.
他媽的....
一個不知所為,不知天高地厚的黃毛小子,
竟然得寸進尺, 爬到我頭上來.
平時不發威竟把我當病貓.
不要以為沒人敢對你怎麼樣,你就能為所欲為.
最好是看凊楚你踩著誰的尾巴.
把我惹火了, 我敢單保你從此絕對不會有好日子過.
他媽的....
Monday, 16 February 2009
Lost~
Time are passing faster nowadays.
Not to mention, years seems to fly pass like a fighter plane.
Thinking about the future can be so scary.
What lies ahead depends on how i want it to be.
What if, I do not know how i want it to be? '
Lost' could be a big word to use but it fits in my shoes. Lost in life? Probably so.
Perhaps being in a place for too long can make one so unmotivated and hopeless.
Looking at my peers and then my superiors. Is this what i want 10 years down the road?
I could feel the drowning sensation and desperately gasping for air.
I need a hand to get me out, to tell me this is the road you should be taking.
Shed some light on my life, please.
It's disheartening going for work everyday now.
Nothing seems to be moving except the clock on the wall.
What is wrong?
Something i have been trying to figure out these days too.
I began to dread this place and am looking for alternatives everyday.
Guess i'm desperate. Desperate to get out.
Staring myself deep at the mirror, this cannot be my life....
Not to mention, years seems to fly pass like a fighter plane.
Thinking about the future can be so scary.
What lies ahead depends on how i want it to be.
What if, I do not know how i want it to be? '
Lost' could be a big word to use but it fits in my shoes. Lost in life? Probably so.
Perhaps being in a place for too long can make one so unmotivated and hopeless.
Looking at my peers and then my superiors. Is this what i want 10 years down the road?
I could feel the drowning sensation and desperately gasping for air.
I need a hand to get me out, to tell me this is the road you should be taking.
Shed some light on my life, please.
It's disheartening going for work everyday now.
Nothing seems to be moving except the clock on the wall.
What is wrong?
Something i have been trying to figure out these days too.
I began to dread this place and am looking for alternatives everyday.
Guess i'm desperate. Desperate to get out.
Staring myself deep at the mirror, this cannot be my life....
Wednesday, 21 January 2009
想對你說的話
一個忘不了的日子,
一幕深深烙印在心裡的畫面,
每年這時都會不盡的浮現.
好想你啊.....
你知道嗎..每次聽到身邊的人說起媽媽的事時,
或打電話給他們時, 心裡有時就會覺得..好酸..
雖然不曾說或表現出來, 不過真的很羨慕.
我當然很慶幸三姨每年除夕不忘都會叫我到她家,
更讓我珍惜每年的年夜飯.
說真的, 我非常感謝她們一家人這幾年對我的照顧,
把我當做家人看待.
但是,我也凊楚我始終不屬於她們一家.
當然不是因為她們做的不夠多或不夠好.
她們對我已經很好,做的夠多了.
畢竟她們才是住在一起的一家人,
會互相照顧, 一起分擔煩惱.
我又怎麼能去加重她們的煩惱呢.
偶爾和她們吃吃晚飯, 還有每年的团圓飯已經讓我很滿足了.
真的很感謝你門!!
回想起小時候總是要跑來跑去, 老是換保母.
一直沒發現其實最辛苦的人是你.
就算我懂事能在家裡時, 你還是會不放心.
每天特早起來, 就為了幫我準備早餐和午餐.
每天放學都會打來問我到家了嗎.
當時我只覺得好煩, 怎麼老是打來.
那時, 我只希望能快點長大.
現在回頭看, 或許我應該好好珍惜和你的每一天.
為什麼總是要在失去後才懂得珍惜呢.
時間不回倒轉, 沒有了重來的機會, 留下的只有後悔.
後悔為什麼沒好好孝順你,
後悔為什麼老是和你頂嘴,
後悔從來都沒和你好好的說話.
如今, 這些後悔換來的只有遺憾.
要怪只能怪當時把一切都當作理所當然.
現在發現一個人要打理一個家真的不容易.
不知道你怎麼有辦法又工作有得做家務.
雖然我從小學會了如何獨立,
但正正一個人住時, 卻是兩回事.
我知道很多人很羨慕我這麼年輕就有自己的家.
不否認的, 一個人住確實有了很大的自由.
你要做什麼都沒有人管.
有一點要記得的是, 你病倒時也沒人會在身邊照顧你.
盡管如此, 我覺得我還是很辛運的.
這幾年來, 我也學會了很多事.
家裡大大小小都得親理親為.
身旁也有許多關心我的好朋友.
媽..
你不用再但心我了, 我真的長大了.
我知道你一直都在某處看著我.
如果你能聽見, 我想對你說..
對不起,
從小到大只會惹你生氣, 讓你但心.
對不起,
在你還在時, 沒有好好的孝順你.
媽媽只有一個, 我卻不會去珍惜.
或許已太遲, 不過我不會忘記你對我所做的一切.
在你離開前所說的話, 我會窂窂記在心裡.
新年快樂, 媽....
一幕深深烙印在心裡的畫面,
每年這時都會不盡的浮現.
好想你啊.....
你知道嗎..每次聽到身邊的人說起媽媽的事時,
或打電話給他們時, 心裡有時就會覺得..好酸..
雖然不曾說或表現出來, 不過真的很羨慕.
我當然很慶幸三姨每年除夕不忘都會叫我到她家,
更讓我珍惜每年的年夜飯.
說真的, 我非常感謝她們一家人這幾年對我的照顧,
把我當做家人看待.
但是,我也凊楚我始終不屬於她們一家.
當然不是因為她們做的不夠多或不夠好.
她們對我已經很好,做的夠多了.
畢竟她們才是住在一起的一家人,
會互相照顧, 一起分擔煩惱.
我又怎麼能去加重她們的煩惱呢.
偶爾和她們吃吃晚飯, 還有每年的团圓飯已經讓我很滿足了.
真的很感謝你門!!
回想起小時候總是要跑來跑去, 老是換保母.
一直沒發現其實最辛苦的人是你.
就算我懂事能在家裡時, 你還是會不放心.
每天特早起來, 就為了幫我準備早餐和午餐.
每天放學都會打來問我到家了嗎.
當時我只覺得好煩, 怎麼老是打來.
那時, 我只希望能快點長大.
現在回頭看, 或許我應該好好珍惜和你的每一天.
為什麼總是要在失去後才懂得珍惜呢.
時間不回倒轉, 沒有了重來的機會, 留下的只有後悔.
後悔為什麼沒好好孝順你,
後悔為什麼老是和你頂嘴,
後悔從來都沒和你好好的說話.
如今, 這些後悔換來的只有遺憾.
要怪只能怪當時把一切都當作理所當然.
現在發現一個人要打理一個家真的不容易.
不知道你怎麼有辦法又工作有得做家務.
雖然我從小學會了如何獨立,
但正正一個人住時, 卻是兩回事.
我知道很多人很羨慕我這麼年輕就有自己的家.
不否認的, 一個人住確實有了很大的自由.
你要做什麼都沒有人管.
有一點要記得的是, 你病倒時也沒人會在身邊照顧你.
盡管如此, 我覺得我還是很辛運的.
這幾年來, 我也學會了很多事.
家裡大大小小都得親理親為.
身旁也有許多關心我的好朋友.
媽..
你不用再但心我了, 我真的長大了.
我知道你一直都在某處看著我.
如果你能聽見, 我想對你說..
對不起,
從小到大只會惹你生氣, 讓你但心.
對不起,
在你還在時, 沒有好好的孝順你.
媽媽只有一個, 我卻不會去珍惜.
或許已太遲, 不過我不會忘記你對我所做的一切.
在你離開前所說的話, 我會窂窂記在心裡.
新年快樂, 媽....
Sunday, 18 January 2009
晚餐
有一段時間沒下廚了
ABC 湯
最近心血來潮
想吃吃一下家裡的食物
所以就大晴早去買菜
也不是說很早啦..大概十二點多..
沒想到這次煮的比前幾次都好
應該算最好的一次吧
不過煮的好像有點多
不過煮的好像有點多
但, 是好吃的囉..
兩菜一湯 (一個人吃真的好像有點多)
甜辣碎肉豆腐
蚵油炒青菜
可能真的外頭的食物吃多了
就覺得家裡煮的食物特別好吃
Monday, 5 January 2009
Back..
Am back after my long trip away.
I would say it's a long trip as it really drain all my energy.
Was glad that i'm back..for once..
it has been a fantastic trip though..
all the drinking and clubbing. probably a little too long..feeling the effects now.
time for a rest, i guess.
2009..
how to make it different from 2008.
gonna go try out new things..
shouldn't waste my life..we would never know what will happen tomorrow.
at least i'm gonna live my life worthwhile.
no time for egret, no time for procastinating.
actions speak louder, experience makes one learn.
it's going to be a different year...
I would say it's a long trip as it really drain all my energy.
Was glad that i'm back..for once..
it has been a fantastic trip though..
all the drinking and clubbing. probably a little too long..feeling the effects now.
time for a rest, i guess.
2009..
how to make it different from 2008.
gonna go try out new things..
shouldn't waste my life..we would never know what will happen tomorrow.
at least i'm gonna live my life worthwhile.
no time for egret, no time for procastinating.
actions speak louder, experience makes one learn.
it's going to be a different year...
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